/hjʊˈmanɪti/

noun

1. human beings collectively
2. the quality of being humans

Here’s a list of times I thought to my self that humanity has failed me since I woke up today-

1. The first post I saw online this morning was a video of Gianna Floyd, daughter of late George Floyd saying- “Daddy changed the world” with a big smile on her face. That sweet little girl was celebrating her fallen father. My heart ached for her.
   • How did we let the world become such a cruel place that a man had to die to “change the world”?
2. Emotional, as I scrolled through my Instagram feed, I saw a homophobic meme, classified as dark humour. Guilty, of giving out a smirk, I read through the comments of the post. One comment by an account was a plead to stop using his community as “meme material” and there were many bashing the account for thinking that the post was funny, but the number of comments applauding the mean joke overshadowed those that actually stood up for what is right.
   • When did we become so mean to people we don’t even know?
3. I then signed a petition for the pregnant elephant killed in Kerala by commoners for no reason at all by feeding her a pineapple filled with firecrackers.
   • Is this what my kind is capable of doing out of boredom? Is this what I am capable of doing out of boredom? Are humans that heartless? Am I that heartless?
4. My mom then shared her conversation with one of our neighbours with sister and me. So this aunty was previously seen bragging about a high amount of donation she made to the PM Fund for COVID19 in a WhatsApp group but today she had been calling to convince other aunties to not pay their maids their salary for the two months they didn’t come to work due to the lockdown because she did not. Now, this maid has been working for her for more than 6 years now. She knows her, her family, her living conditions. So why can’t she render her maid financial aid the way she helped a lot of people she does not even know by donating to the relief fund?
   • Charity. Is it done to be liked or looked up to by your friends and family or is it done to actually do good deeds and be better humans?
5. “More than 300 migrants died due to reasons ranging from starvation, suicides, exhaustion, road and rail accidents, police brutality and denial of timely medical care during the lockdown in India”- read a notification from TOI on my phone. We were all so busy learning to dance, play the piano, cook continental dishes online and spending good quality time with our families in the comforts of our homes that we forgot about daily wage earners and labourers.
   • How can we be that self-centred, that ignorant, that inhumane?

I have questioned humanity, as in- the entire human race and humanity, as in- the ability to empathise possessed by humans, the benevolence, the compassion, the magnanimity multiple times in one day, and honestly this isn’t the first time.

But today I feel I am slowly reaching the point wherein I will just stop questioning our ignorance, our cruelty, our actions. I will give up on hope for a better tomorrow. I will just accept in my mind that the human race is not worth the superiority and credit it has been given all these years.

We are horrible creatures capable of doing horrible things.

I feel it is not just me who is feeling so let down by my own kind today, we all are!

Is this the world we want to live in? Is this the mindset we want to live with? 

Has humanity truly gone down the drains?

Still wondering.