There is this girl

She pulls her hair a little every time someone compliments her

Or someone else 

“Touchwood, kahin nazar na lag jaaye”

She has the weirdest logic- her skin is all red when she steps out of the shower

Because she showers in boiling water

“I burn to the ground and rise again rejuvenated like a phoenix every morning”

She hums along with Aarambh right after dancing to Kajra Re

Her entire playlist is bizarre 

“Both Aishwarya’s foxiness and Piyush Mishra’s poetry fired my revolution”

She loves everything she touches unconditionally, 

With no expectations of being loved back

“I have too much love thus I give, I don’t need reinforcements yet”

She is her own person

Does not need anybody’s validation

“Kareena Kapoor said it first but main bhi apni favourite hoon”

She does not miss a chance to talk about the Mahabharata

Her face lights up every time

“I think I have some personal connection to the tale, shayad main hii Draupadi thi”

She calls herself toxic

And knows she needs to work on that trait

“My unmeetable expectations from relationships must be hazardous to life”

She is always in her little room by herself

Her thoughts and the internet are enough to keep her busy all day, every day

“YouTube comes to my rescue when the voices in my head start to bore me”

She is either too passionate about something or not interested at all

There is no in-between for her

“I don’t half-ass things, its either all my heart or none at all”

She reads Amrita Pritam and Ghalib in crowded trains and 

Sighs loudly as she turns a page every time

“When will I be someone’s muse? When will I be someone’s firdaus?”

She has struggled with putting herself first in all her relationships

But she is constantly trying to be better 

“Self- love toh pehle se jaanti thi, ab self- sufficient bann na seekh rahi hoon”

She is petty and mean sometimes,

Almost always but she means well

“I don’t hold grudges behind your back, I am unfiltered to your face!”

She does not say that she could take a bullet for her loved ones

Instead she says she could fire one up if time demands and laughs

“Everybody says they would die in the name of love, but would anyone lose their morals and kill for love?”

She is something else

She is amazing

She is a force of nature, and 

I have fallen in love with her 

With every living cell of my body

We have been together for almost nineteen years now and 

It is finally crystal clear to me that 

I do not need anybody for as long as she has got my back

To the song of my heart,

To the smile of my soul,

To you,

I love you and you are worthy of abundance

You are flawed but who isn’t?

So be kind to yourself,

Forgive yourself as easily you forgive others

You are not difficult to love, they just don’t know how to

So be patient

Your gods are listening to every single prayer you say

And they will deliver sooner or later, 

Tu bas karm kar, fal ki chinta nahi

Okay?

I will be a sigh away if you need me

Tumhari,

Jasmita